So nervous...I could PEE!

I thought the title was perfect, considering this post is talking about how on Wednesday the 4th, we attempted our first try at having a baby. It went pretty smoothly, a little awkward, but that's to be expected when using a friend as a known donor. We are so grateful to him, that we really cannot express how much this means to us. He and his wife are being so wonderful about this process, about helping us out, and about us having a baby. Leigh and I are both praying and hoping pretty much all day, every day that this takes the first time because we really cannot wait to have this baby.

I can almost not make it through the day, wondering if I might be pregnant. I ordered my pregnancy tests online, because they offered a huge discount for buying a bunch of them, and because then I would be forced to wait until at least they got here before I could start obsessively peeing on the sticks lol. The only thing keeping me from testing now is that I know the result would probably be negative, since it is too early after my ovulation date. I don't want to be discouraged by a negative result, so I am anxiously counting down the days. At the end of each day, all I can think is "one more day down" until I can test.

For personal, and for hopeful reasons, we won't be telling pretty much anyone right away if we do become pregnant. And after this post, until we are ready to announce our pregnancy, we won't be talking about any future attempts, or trials at getting pregnant. Our reasoning is that while we will be bursting with joy about being pregnant, we also have a logical side that lets us know that some pregnancies do not last. We would rather keep it to ourselves, and wait until we are almost positive I will not miscarry, before telling anyone. Because if our parents find out that they will be grandparents, and then we miscarry or lose the pregnancy, I believe it would be devastating. So for that reason, and a few others, from now on it will be *hush hush* until we are ready to announce that we are expecting. I hope you all can understand why we came to this decision.

So for now, until the day comes, please send tons of good thoughts, prayers, hope, and lots and lots of BABY DUST our way! And thank you all for being with us on this incredible journey!